Wednesday, June 12, 2013

One Last Hurrah for Nostalgia!

So the theme around here the past two weeks seems to have been... expat life, feeling sorry for myself, and nostalgia. I swear I have my Dakar Top Ten ready for y'all, but today I happened upon a song I'd been trying to remember for several weeks and... nostalgia got me again.

When I was doing the Blog Every Day in May challenge, I skipped the "music that brings back memories" prompt. I knew there was this song that elicits major flashbacks to adolescence, but I couldn't put my finger on it. I even remembered writing an essay about it in high school! Well, today with iTunes on shuffle, it hit me like a ton of bricks. So I decided to honor that pesky emotion nostalgia for one more day and share some rather awful but poignant songs from the past. 

This song is quintessential emo 90s and the lyrics... well, I'm pretty sure they were going for nostalgia and melancholy with lines like:

And don't it make you sad to know that life, is more than who we are.


We grew up way too fast, and now there's nothing to believe.
And reruns all become our history.

For me, "Name" conjures memories of riding in cars late at night, through dark winding roads, windows down, summer air tussling my hair. Spotting stars through the sunroof, surrounded by friends who felt like family at such an angsty time. I am determined to track down the high school essay because I'm pretty sure it was #emogold.

Another childhood favorite:

The Goo Goo Dolls apparently have a way with nostalgia! This song was on the soundtrack to City of Angels, saddest movie ever to a fifth grade girl. I was gifted the C.D. for my birthday and vividly recall listening to this song on repeat every.single.night. as I drifted off to sleep. I can even picture the C.D. alarm clock on my nightstand, that round play button I fumbled for in the dark. 

"Iris" was also the soundtrack to the scenario I liked to envision every night as I fell asleep: a perfect and seamless first kiss with my middle school crush. I distinctly remember this scene playing out in a dream one night where he kissed me during recess by the track, and all the other girls who liked him just happened to see and were wrought with envy. I was a very principled pre-teen, apparently.

Twas difficult to pick the most heart wrenching lyric, but I think this one says it all:

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

Tomorrow, I close the door on nostalgia. Tonight I revel in it!

P.S. I hope I didn't lose too much credibility admitting to my pre-teen affinity for the Goo Goo Dolls... or for that dream ;)

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